Something Really Scary Almost Happened To Me Today....

Something bad almost happened to me today. I was kind of afraid. This island is weird sometimes. Some people here are not like the people I am used to. I was almost at the wrong place at the wrong time. I'm glad I'm safe...

Cool...

I think I've decided to conclude my cyber dairy and record of this life transition. I've realized recently after I was able to get a lot of restful sleep, that I can't keep putting myself on blast. Some of the controversy reminds me of my earlier years and I've took someone's advice about whats goin' on. I guess I should say that after these recent 4 weeks, I've managed to adapt to the things I have happening. This internet journal for The National Student Exchange back at home in Ashland, I think its lended itself well as a manuscript. I've proved my points to myself and everyone else I've needed to about some of what I do and how I do it. Right now I'm just ready to embark on whats next. This whole internet journal may have been a way to help me modify my life by what I've experienced. But as of now, I guess it could be best to let life live itself. All things will makes sense when they should. What ever is supposed to happen will.

I guess recently, I've looked over some of the material I've created, and I've sensed a lack of balance because of culture shock, and the life choices and chances that manifested themselves to me. I remember everything of course. But I've also noticed that my sleeping pattern went crazy which made me feels things that were out of the ordinary. I should probably acknowledge why I began to fall behind on a lot of sleep because doing so, it kinda made my amygdala swell a little. I guess it may have been my room. My residence here at UVI, I was always frustrated with excessive heat. I don't know anyone that CAN sleep in a sauna. I lost a lot of focus and may have conveyed things that now happen to be against better judgment.

I couldn't sleep in all the excessive heat waves and my room failed to be air condition as I wasn't even provided with a fan. So I kept taking lots of naps where I could but could never get a full, decent night's rest. I have been able to recently. But I also knew that every time I actually DID get to sleep in my residence, a buncha spiders and mosquitoes kept eating my feet when I sleep. I already got crazy scars and I don't like tarantulas : ) But after a four week course. I feel level and ready to take things in. So I guess I can relax about transcribing any manuscripts about these adventures and life lessons. It dawned on me that spirit and machine don't coincide with each other really well so it is easy for someone like me to become misunderstood through computers due to how I talk better than type. I can be too spirited to be interpreted correctly through a 2-demensional world that doesn't relay HOW I would say things. I guess I was just infatuated with internet for a while after I almost passed on. It's been a season since then. Here where I am though, summer is extended. It might be crazy to abandon the equator of an endless summer and then render reverse culture shock again goin' in to a winter wonderland. But I have discovered other endeavors to make happen. And maybe some of these experiences and enlightenments are as they should be right now. Things are cool.

An Attempt To Recall a Few of These Recent Days....

I know I was gonna go and record some video about some tropical baby tortoises comin' up out of their egg shells. They were gonna run to the sand and find their new-found baby turtle marine life after being born and hatched. I was running to the beach to see this because I thought I was gonna be late. About half-way there, the flip-flop on my sandals caught the concrete and ripped my toe nail off my skin. That was a RUSH. I started bleeding everywhere I walked. Even in the sand on the beach and the water in the bay. I was growlin' for about 15/20 minutes.

I also had some work fall into my lap. I'm gonna be running chainsaws and clearing a lot of tropic forestry and playin' with machines. That's cool. My scuba course went awesome. I've already got it all down so I swam deep into the water and stayed under water for about an hour or two. I swam pretty far away from the shore with these tanks on my back. It was a blast. I also found people who are putting me through to the 'audio world' is what they called it. My boy D* is probably the funniest person I've met here so far. He's like, "Awright Crum, whats yo protocol?" I just laughed my ass off at him. It was true laughter man. It made me feel good. There are still some things that are pending within me. But aside from all of that, in my history class with Mr. Sekou, he is letting my internet book pass as the final assignment. Apparently, they all love to listen to what I say in that class. On Monday the 1st, we had the most engaged, enlightened, and intellectual class session ever. We spoke of the 4 voyages and how these islands became named for what they are. We also spoke of the mayan codes and prophecies that are just right around the corner. We talked about this nation and what it is and how it is launching the world into war and destruction. I think I am going to write my own passage about that class because for everything I retained, it deserves its own transcription.

I also have been rendering some culture shock a little bit too. I am kind of cut off from the world I once knew back at home. It's times like that when I wish I had someone to talk to. There are only so many people here who know me to an extent. I wish to God I could talk to my room mate that I've tried to get ahold of for weeks now. I keep getting hilarious flashbacks about some of the funniest fading memories with me and my friends. But I think last night was the first decent night of rest that I've had in weeks. A lot of people here keep asking about those videos I've uploaded into youtube. They said that an idea like that hasn't been done here before. They described it to be 'Hot,' (was their words). I told them its hilarious to make a video dairy about some hilarious experiences. : ) And they have also been finding out about my cyber diaries. When I got interviewed for the Virgin Island News Paper, they believed it to be remarkable for the reasons I gave them and how and why I brought myself here. It's crazy though because even though I put so much into the internet, I never know who sees what when, and how many people actually come across a lot of the things I do. Random people seem to know who I am and they engage in conversations with me for knowing some of the things that I do or confide through youtube or my electronic diaries (or journals, depending on how you view them). It is kind of crazy because each day seems to have an unexpected surprise. Some things still really make me wonder though....